So I'm writing my essay on the food pantry. Then I have to turn it around and make it relate to me. Which may surprise some of you. Anyways I've been really tired lately, and once again being shuttled around to doctors and dentists and its taking a toll on me. Probably because I keep avoiding these doctors and dentists and rescheduling and BOOM it happens all in one week.  But it makes me really tired and I don't feel like working on my essay, which I better start feel like doing because I present to the class at the end of October and its due Nov. 3. Yawn.

I need to hear some good happy, funny news. Like that fox song Amy posted. THAT was funny. And it got stuck in my head. Someone please cheer me up. I'm feeling kinda down.

Back to prayer

So today everything went wrong. Started out ok. Went to counseling appointment. Funny she gave me a picture of a little jar and asked me to fill it up with all the things that stress me out. Kinda childish, she admitted that but said it works with adults too, nonetheless. So I couldn't fill up my jar. Im not too stressed these days...or so I thought. My "little jar" Blew its cork today. GI issues (keep taking the pill...) losing my keys in my apartment, losing my rosary in my purse,  a bottle of facial cleanser exploding on my sweatshirt...and the list goes on.  I was a mess. And then, I listened to "You Are More" by Tenth Avenue North  awhile ago, (Its my feel better everything's going to be ok song)and for the first time since Lent, I think, I did, or tried to do, a Rosary. I prayed for the good as well as the bad, and I feel a sense of calmness, although I am still anxious.....

Any prayers right now would be welcome.


Thanks for listening

Not Another One! But this is what I signed up for! :P

Well, like I said,  I turned in said essay...now there's ANOTHER one due Nov. 7. I have a topic in mind, a literary journalism essay,just have to get it confirmed by prof, and who I want to write about....I missed 2 days of class last week, due to medical ailments.. and apparently I missed a lot...but it couldn't be helped.

Anyways, I am still struggling with these medical issues you probably don't want to hear about....but prayers would be nice.

arrrgghhh...so frustrated right now!


The fair was great, I came home with another bag of cotton candy, although I don't remember what it tastes like because I got up and devoured the whole bag at 3am. Don't ask what I was doing up at 3am eating cotton candy, because I really don't know!

Essay over...moving on

Ok...sorry I haven't been writing...I've been really busy with this essay for class. revising, revising, adding stuff, more revising, even more revising, okay you get my point.  But it will all end on Tuesday, because that's when the thing's finally DUE. And I can FINALLY say I'm DONE! Oh, and I also had a kidney infection which threw me off for a couple of days. But it's fall now! I love fall. pretty leaves of different colors, the fair this week, or next, (don't remember exactly, but theyre  putting up rides, and vendors are moving into the fairgrounds.) Every year I HAVE to have fair fries loaded with vinegar and ketchup. I know, I know, that alone would put the pounds on but what's the fair without the fries? And I love seeing the animals. Rides are no longer an attraction now that I'm way past that age, but I remember being 12 or 13 and my friends and I getting the all day rides bracelets. But as for now just walking around is nice. Well, that's it for now. Have a good weekend!

Writing and Mums

So class is going good...I have a working essay, which is good, because that is what the prof. is starting to ask for. I want to put some more to it to make it a little longer, and have more content, I believe an essay is never done til its deadline. You can keep revising and editing til then and that's what I will continue to do. I also have to let it sit for a few days and just think about it or take a break and then come back to it, and then I find I have more ideas, and the revision process starts all over again.

Sorry you had to hear that, but I like writing. About writing. Because that's what I do.

Another note, what's with the weather. I'm sitting here wearing jeans and a sweater with the screen door open, and I can feel a cool breeze. It looks like it will rain soon. More rain for my NEW MUMS! They are absolutely beautiful. I got pink ones, red ones, and yellow ones/ My neighbor who has TONS of flowers explained to me how to take care of them. I'm not sure I remember everything she said, but I think I'll be okay. I can always go back and ask her. AND NOW...the sun makes an appearance! I'm putting off my class reading til Sunday or Monday because I find if I do it on Fri Sat or Sun I can't remember anything about what we were supposed to read in the class discussion on Tuesday so I just sit there with a blank stare on my face and no one probably thinks I DID the reading lol. Well, that's all for now.

Have a good weekend everyone :)

Back to school....the Write Stuff!

My class started and it's going great so far. Our first assignment (its a non fiction class) is to write an essay on anything we want. Anything. So my prof. suggested the bus system but I wanted to write a memoir about some of the mental health issues I've experienced and that's ok too. Well I couldn't decide, and I'm not getting credit and I have a lot of free time, love writing so I'll write both and share the one I deem most important or better written with the class. I have the bus one written already but it needs a lot of revision, I am learning, as we study technique along the way. But a huge lift has been lifted off my shoulders because at least I have something written and its not due til Oct. 3! So I'm getting out of the apartment, going to class, and writing...sounds good to me!  :)

Seeing and class

I can see! Without glasses. Well ok far distance is a little fuzzy, but not that bad. I was reading a book, before class, and I was like this is SO blurry, so I took my glasses off, and it was a miracle! The words were so clear, as was everything around me...so I didn't wear my glasses to class, and every thing was so easy to read. And I'm able to read this too. I don't know whether I just didn't need bifocals or they took me off the one antipsychotic (Invega) but I'm really happy.

And....I made it to class today. All the peoples are great and seem to have a love for non fiction lit. and there's no whiny people who are taking the class because they HAVE to. Prof. is great too. I think I'm really going this class and get a lot out of it. For me. it's not the credit that counts, it's what I learn and integrate with my writing skills that does.

Enough said. :)

Oh, and my flowers died...except the petunias :(